It seems Typepad is worth the money, after all. I signed up for the free trial, but I think it will be difficult to part with this blog. This one, I truly intend to fill up. It feels strange to be so.. disconnected I believe is the word (is it even a word..?), being used to Livejournal for such a number of years (5, I believe). Still, Typepad still feels more like a community than Blogger. And as it is the home of those blogs which I read (or at least check) everyday, I wanted in. To be part of the club, so to speak.
It took me two days but I think I finally reached a design that I like, and works. I can never do anything simple, and make it look beautiful. It's a curse, of sorts.
I'm hoping that with a payed blog I will want to update more; I will want to create more. I have a million craft projects, and they are never as easy as I think they will be, they are never exactly what I imagined in my mind. Felt is too floppy, my sewing skills too bad, my drawing skills non-existent, plastic too...plastic, the spray paint never works as well as I want it to, the glue becomes unstuck, the things that work are too blah. To be honest with myself, I shouldn't be doing this crafty business thing. I'm too..imperfect. But I want it, so much, that I delude myself that all it takes is persistence, and that I'll get there. I have the ideas, but not the skills. This drives me crazy.
I guess that is the whole point of this blog; to chart a map, to force myself to make, create, instead of just imagining, of ooh-ing and aah-ing over other people's blogs instead of writing on my own (and there have been several). Stop being lazy of taking photographs, get out of this slump.
There. I actually feel better now!
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